There is an awesome van for sale on the way into town. It is a white high-top with few windows, and best of all I think it is a Sprinter. I was in a hurry so I couldn't get a close look at it, and I am sure it is out of my price range, but that is the first time I've seen one in person. I'll try to get a better look next time I head into town.

I can explain

Err, so sorry for the totally sporadic nature of my blog. Everything is still the same. I still have consistency issues. I have been unemployed since 2009. I live with my parents. That is not a good thing, nor is it a bad thing, exactly. We just get along better when not forced together. I still have the same little car, but no money whatsoever to modify it. I can't even afford gas. So. Nothing going on, except dreaming.

I know that I haven't posted with any sort of regularity, and I do apologize for that. As I have said before, I have problems with depression, apathy, and motivation. Also, I am currently anemic which is a further drain on my energy levels. But the dream of vandwelling and traveling persists. I have recently felt renewed interest in modifying my car for living in and plan to get that front seat out next week come Hell or high water! I've also got tentative plans to visit friends in March/April. They live about 200 miles away, which is a decent trip. I've made that drive in one morning or afternoon before, but this time I think I would prefer a leisurely drive of a few days. A good way to test out vandwelling for myself, I think. I will write more about removing the seat in a few days (hopefully) when it is finally, finally done.

Sorry about the silence on my end. I haven't made any much progress towards getting out of here, or towards living in my vehicle. I am still struggling with the removal of my front passenger seat, although I must confess I've hardly tried really. I'd much rather a van, but I don't have the money for that. Nor a job, I mooch off my parents basically. My social anxiety is very bad, and I have no confidence about putting myself out there for employment. A friend of my uncles said that she could get me a job at a pizza place, but the commute would be about 2 hours a day, 70+ miles. So I don't think I'll be taking her up on that.

I really do need to get out of here, though it is hard to leave a place where I get free room and board in exchange for very little chores. I feel guilty about being here though, and I don't get on with my family very well on a day to day basis.

So, this happened

(cross-posted)

Seeds, the bane of my existence

So, my attempt to start seeds in small pots and egg cartons was a total wash- I think the soil was too heavy. :( But a few days ago I tried starting some wildflower seeds in paper towels and plastic bags, and lo and behold I'm actually getting some sprouting activity! I want to give them a few more days to grow before I try planting these, then I'll try starting some of the vegetable seeds this way.

Update on Garden, Car

I planted some chives and parsley a few days ago. None of my seeds have germinated yet, so I moved them to the sunniest piece of our property, hopefully that will encourage them to grow.

STILL unable to remove the front passenger seat. I don't want to have to cut the bolts, but it's beginning to look like the only way. If I can find some WD-40 I'll try that, but otherwise that plan is on hiatus for now.